Profile: White Beard

He is a proud man. He comes from a background of relative wealth and success. He enjoyed, on numerous occasions, reasons to believe himself to be superior to the common man. In his youth he was a great athlete. In his career, he held positions of superiority over all men in his company. Today he holds a position of similar strength.

In his youth, he was never committed to things. This is due to his father and the abhorrent relationship they shared during his youth and he would eventually find great admiration and make amends with him. He has pride in what could have been. He was athletically superior, w/o a doubt, but never did he refine his skills for an extended amount of time.

He also enjoyed the darker faculties of life. He would take to medically supplemented experiences and horizontal enjoyment throughout the years of his young adulthood. He was very much a person of appetite. Ignoble in his younger days and he would later repair the errs of his youth later on in his life.

He also suffered in ways that are common when it comes to aging. He lost his wife. His family battles with illness, and he himself fought cancer and other illnesses. After his one-year seclusion in mourning over his wife, he would take a 5 year sojourn in medically supplemented experiences and horizontal enjoyment.

Now from all of this, what can one induce?

He is a man of appetite. If he wants something, he will go get it. He has a very bellicose, focused, anxious, and reserved outlook on life. Like all individuals, he also suffers from a slate of cognitive dissonance (those who are unaware of what that is, I would recommend Kant’s or Nietzsche’s  essays on the subject).

His anxiety and focus are all internalized. On the outside he is like a regal lion. Like the lion whose tranquil focus is backed by the devastating force in his jaw and feet, Ron never shows all his cards. He is calculative in his speech and words. This does not mean he is silent when he does not know. No, he is more likely to thwart and redirect conversation into areas of which he is more comfortable, like the mongol who will retreat onto steppe lands for his horses during combat.

He does not admit defeat. For the whole of his childhood, he was raised to excel. His weakness is his inability to admit defeat. He is extremely competitive by nature so here his ambition can be found. All around he is a strong individual in character, but this is his main fault. He is self-righteous. He is prideful in his past endeavors and the pains he has gone through. He determines himself better for going through hardships and being different from people. Which is not really special to him only. This is common in all peoples. They believe themselves special by their own experiences because their experiences are all that they have to devise upon.

more will come


3 thoughts on “Profile: White Beard

  1. Unmitigated J says:

    Allow me to rephrase slightly, you’ve expressed a depth and tenderness of emotion and a description of grief that is almost overwhelmingly intense. This is what I’ve found to be atypical. You write with an authentic voice.


    • Thank you for your close reading~ Always welcomed.
      My psychopathology was something that was nurtured, I was not born a sociopath. Due to some unfortunate events my psyche was forever altered and was labeled neurotic or sociopathic. I do not know if you have read (?). Basically my explanation of emotions. I believe this will be of great help to you.
      Now the “dying” is symbolic of my own psychopathology seemingly dissipating from my consciousness. It is a memoir of something that may disappear, something of which I may wish to look back on.


  2. Unmitigated J says:

    Having read a number of your posts, you express emotion. This is atypical for someone who is, or believes they are, a Psychopath. What is dying — your physical body or some component of yourself?


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