I believe that in all lives we can find a reoccurring theme. There will be some idea or conflict that will remain eternal throughout our lives. Mine is the tangibility of the mind. In many ways I am like a guinea pig used for my own experiments. Most of them have been thought experiments but they all stem out into the physical world so there really is no distinction to be made.
Now imagine the mind to be water. There are three states when it comes to water: solid, liquid, and gas. Colder climates will have ice and the warmer it gets the more abundant the other states of water there will be. Now imagine the environments of which the state of water exists to be the environments of which we reside. There are individuals out there who are less flexible with their thoughts, ideas, and imagination because their climate remains stagnate and inhibits progress and thus freezes the culmination of cognitive growth. These “freezing” climates would be like the minds of the illiterate, poor, and government bound.
Now enter the stage of where liberation or growth begins to culminate. Ideas of morality and equality emerge. This warmer climate would be well paired with religious households but in America. There is still a wide range of limiting ideas that could apply to whatever religion you are forced into but there is a wide range of liberating ideas, philosophies, and teachers that one could supplement themselves with. The more intellectual freedoms that are offered the warmer their intellectual environment becomes and the more freely they will be able to roam within the ethers of their minds.
Finally comes the last stage of the cognitive water, gas. This is when there are no faculties of intellectual confinement and one is free to roam and conceive new thoughts and ideas. One could imagine such a climate to be the equivalent to the laboratories of NASA or some other organization created for the purpose of experimentation, learning, and advancing. At such a stage no line of inquiry is prohibited or inclined. There are no preset notions of right and wrong, just discovery.
Now like all water vapors, oceans, and glaciers we do not remain in one state forever. If one is born in a particularly cold climate one does not have to stay there. However, just like how ice can eventually become gas, the gas can also become ice. As we advance through life we will not have any more control over the inputs of life today than we will tomorrow. To remain an intellectual one must stimulate one’s self with new ideas or else the mind will become cold and stop growing.
*This is a profile of a person I know. I have dissected what I can from his actions and the people that surround them. Although this is a discourse founded upon personal inquiry. Nothing was founded by external inquiry.
The Whacking Cat
HE is open minded and open to new experiences. He is described to be kind but also intimidating to some. He prides himself in his accomplishments and finds joy in discovering new things. He has a thirst to “live life” to its fullest.
Now lets dig deeper and find his weak points.
I find it very revealing to focus on the relationships the individual has with their mother and any other significant female relationship they have had during childhood.
He showers them with gifts and memento to remind his mother and sisters of how much he adores them. This reveals a desire or necessity for emotional security. Needing to constantly remind his females that he loves them and cares for them. A self-conscious complex is revealed. This translate also to him caring about what others think of him. Which also points to the idea that behind his thirst to live life is to show that he is indeed living life. “Proving” to others that he is not wasting it.
Now onto other revealing factors.
He is at the mercy of his emotional state. He cannot handle his emotions, he has no defense mechanism besides riding his emotions out. His state of being sways at the mercy of the people around him and his environment. An emotional intelligence weakness. He finds comfort in a God for all the turmoil that he goes through is validated and if he believes that they are with purpose he is thus comforted. A little pathetic
He has no control over anger, depression, or happiness. Whatever emotional state he is in, all his efforts to change will be useless for he has no knowledge of how to effectively manipulate or mediate his own emotions. He lacks in that area of maturity.
This makes him highly self-conscious and so he has the need to show that he is indeed mature and doing better than other people. So he has defined what a “mature” individual lives, looks, and thinks like and follows these guidelines to the best of his ability. He figures he is doing well for his “mature” construct has deceived him into thinking that he making progress in maturing.
I would go on but this is starting to get redundant.
This is a rare insight to one of my experiments. I, myself, have never wrote down my experiments during the process of their creation or ever really…
So I have come across the rare opportunity to write one down today because I started to create one. I was curious as to the extent or the existence of a person’s self-consciousness. I have been curious to exploit this but I rarely had the chance for I rarely do I ever get to see this person. Today, on a luck’s whim, I was able to see this person. So here was my plan.
Most of my experiments do not take a long time to accomplish but every now and then I will have some that take weeks, months, and even years. This one would take longer than usual because I could not figure out any shorter way. All my experiments take as long as they need to.
My plan was to compliment them and make the moment very memorable to them. After establishing this I would allow them to leave on a positive note and wait for our next encounter. The last impression will inevitably leave a positive stigma and have them attracted to me and my compliments. The next time they see me I will then retract my compliment and insult them on their appearance or anything else that I could find to be a weak-spot(I have a couple in mind). Their reaction will reveal to me the extent of their self consciousness and other characteristics that I am curious about, such as defense mechanisms. I suspect that this will cause them to look up to me for confirmation. I will be strategic and compliment them on some days and insult them on others. The more reactions I get the more revelations of their character that will come. The reactions from the compliments will be as equally as revealing as their reactions to the insults.
I have said that I would never reveal all of me. This is true.
My voice is one of the most experimented with attributes of mine. I often change it at a whim in order to better communicate or even to communicate less. I shall give one of the voices here today.
Keep in mind these are not separate entities or personalities. These are just ways I incorporate and regulate my intelligence in the way that I say to best fit a situation.
This is the voice I will use when talking in social environments(most of the time). This voice is extremely funny and I have known to get all the lols in a single room ha ha. He is eccentric and energetic. He is a genius in the way that he catches onto social cues and manipulates them to make people laugh. Great way to make people like you is to make them laugh. They will see their own laughter as a sign that you are a good person and will like you. Most of the time it does not take much to convince people that you are cool or nice if you just make them laugh. With strangers I usually just rapid fire different joke-types to see what type of humor they like. Most people find the same things funny so it is not too hard to figure people out.
He also can be the most crazy. All of my voices have this potential. A sort of defense mechanism must be built into all of my creations in order to insure safety in any environment or scenario. A friend of mine thinks that I am the most sociopath-like when I have these crazy fits of humorous laughter.
Through this line of experimentation to create this character I have become able to laugh at anything. When I say anything I meant it haha.
How I created it
Many of you will be curious on how I create a voice or my mental projections. First it takes a lil bit of imagination. Imagine an ant trying to play chess and beating you in a game! Kill it so one will know. Just kidding.
First there was the matter of being actually funny. You will have to go out of your stupid lil comfort zones and try to be funny. You won’t be at first but over time you will slowly see what makes people laugh and what doesn’t. Through this you will also be gifted with the marvelous power of recognizing vibes and social cues. I use to be so terribly unfunny. Man… What a loser I was. It’s embarrassing just thinking about it.
But no worries now I am as funny as they come.
Next step was a plus for me.
Laugh at everything
It was not too hard for me. This was mixed with my experiments with fear so I tried to laugh at the things that people found not funny.I already found murder to be quite funny so the next step was the more gory and bloody stuff. I stared into the eyes of people being tortured and hurt on screens and real life and had a good laugh. It was hard at first but over time it got more and more funny. Now I laugh at anything. Oh the looks I get when I slap someone in the face or kick someone that is on the ground and have a huge laugh are the most delightful.
Of course I moderate when I choose between extremities. I like to tailor my exposure to those who I crave reaction from.
And look how normal this all sounds…hmm? Sure of course you can do the same thing. Try it… I dare you. Alllow yourself to creep into madness. Will you run in with me or crawl?
Many would ascribe themselves to be a friend of mine. As people value and friendship and the use it has for networking. People will claim friendship just for the sake of appearing to be more social. And so people will claim to be my friend.
To be honest, friends are of no necessity. It is not necessary to have friends but there potential for usage is of extreme value.
It is not wrong to use people, especially if they enjoy the work they are doing because they feel as though they are getting closer to you are accomplishing some moral feat.
I am not fond of having friends because of the amount of time they will waste talking to each other about the most trivial of matters. Entire speeches where it would not have made the slightest difference if I were to never hear them speak in the first place. I have a select few friends(just 1) that I confide in and trust to be people that I completely enjoy. I am not anti-social, although my words if were to be spoken at a party would outcast me, I am intelligent with my remarks and do not deviate from social norm, regularly.
One of the most excellent uses for friends or people in general are experiments. My experiments deal mostly with reaction or revelation and I learn a great deal through my, what some would say, inhumane or queer hobby.
Some might call me mad for thinking this way but this seems very clear to me.
Recently I have come to meet a reader of mine who calls himself The Shadow. The Shadow commented on my blog post titled The Idiocy of Self-Consciousness and gave me a dilemma to answer. I will show you the dilemma and I hope you will give it some thought. I will also post my answer but do not look to see what I though immediately after. Give it 5 mins of thought and then peer on.
Again thanks to The Shadow for your contribution.
And without any further delay:
That’s the trouble with children – they’re so predictable.
Consider the idea that you’re put in a blank space (which you could interpret to mean as a generic empty environment), absent of all life and you can be sustained for the course of a natural life. When you first arrive, you are left with the directive that there is a problem and a solution that exists in this space. You must solve the problem by the end of life. What do you do?
Do you fill your life trying to solve the problem (and risk being unable to find or solve it)? Do you try, fail (without knowing you have failed) and give up, to spare yourself the ambiguity of failure? Do you not try at all, hoping that the only true solution is to simple be?
-Do not Peek
My Answer(Directly from the comment):
For my answer with your situation about an empty environment without life, I would approach it in two ways. First does the problem have an answer that I seek. The grandness of the issue. What does it deal with? If my sole purpose now was to solve the problem and the problem is not fulfilling then I would simply kill myself. If it is grand, arduous, and a field of study where I can find growth, then by all means I would try to solve it. There also comes the question if I would actually accept the truth behind the solution. I do not know of course, but it is not a stretch to say that I could go mad and lose my mind after solving the problem and so I fear to solve it in the first place. It is a dilemma of which sanity and insanity loses division and become one and the same. To be sane in such an environment is insane. So can the problem be solved and the truth be separated from it? Am I searching for a truth or is the solution my inevitable psychological implosion? And even if I grow from my experience what is the point to the problem if after solving it there is not point or space or growth afterwords. Perhaps killing myself would be the best answer.
We categorize things without question. We attach onto our consciousness shades of negativity and positivity. If we are feeling depressed we express it as a negative emotion, and an emotion such as joy as a positive one. This will be a little hard to grasp but imagine why we do this? Why say one is bad and not the other? Why is feeling bad bad? From whom or what does this come from?
Our consciousness is a combination of chemicals firing within our brain and yet we attach a sense of self. As if our consciousness is something that remains stable and stagnant. Many will never experience or want to experience hallucinogens, depressants, or any other chemicals because they think that they will not be themselves. (I implore you to read Sam Harris’ essay Drugs and the meaning of life.) This sense of self is an illusion.
This “self” or Consciousness is easily altered without the aid of drugs. How often do we not “feel ourselves” when we sleep too little or go without a cup of coffee. Caffeine, a drug that most citizens of the world dose themselves with on a daily basis, is a drug they use so they can ultimately “feel like themselves”. A single monolithic Consciousness is a misconception. We sway with our consciousness in waves of different unique states. So why label a fraction of states to be good and another to be bad?
One can enjoy all states of consciousness with the change of perspective. The mind is such a powerful tool and we undermine it by labeling its forms with such weak and limiting descriptors.
A very practical use is the manipulation of pain. I use to be terribly scared of pain but through mental training I have learned to separate myself from the body by, not ignoring it, but recognizing it. By recognizing that the pain is just a sensation mixed with chemicals and nerves, this reminds me that I do not have to view pain to be a negative sensation. Does this sound ridiculous? Yes? You shut your face. Just kidding. Try it and see for yourself. It will not be easy but go on your own journey and see where it takes you.